Life is a precipice, we spend a life time looking over it, but stepping back to carry on with life. With old age, we know one day we will go over. But this Christmas three people have passed, one young and two old so it can come any time. Hence the need to get on with life. I hope I have years left to visit all the places I want to go to. People I hope to re-meet but there is a good chance I will just potter on, not get round to half the things, as there is always something new too, and then daily life, which is what my grandma captured just goes on too. However, at the start of 1962, things were not going well.
2nd January.
Jeff mad. I tried to head him off- none of my business what Y does with the children. I countered with Brian. Lying Jeff gibbered - so you'll write to Brian - warned him not to put words into my mouth.
3rd January.
Helen did not know she was being punished, mother not saying goodnight, said mother got into trouble for going up to Nicky. Swept ice away...Helen ? joker? about Jeff - told (tried to Y she attacked me bruised and slapped face - ? You are a devil trying to ruin my life! Shocked never uttered a sound.
Grandma has crossed out 62 and written 63, it is hard to tell thereafter whether she is talking about 62 or 63.
Thursday 10th 63 Babs op.
13th. Very cold. Up late. Only swept stairs. Cinema - Jumbo very good - cinema warm and comfortable. Albert at hospital. Power but 9.30 - 10.30.
14th Toilet paper on chair - Jeff took?
15th Babs to go home tomorrow, Weds after lunch.
19th very cold - did not go out all day.
21 very cold and slippery. left shoulder, ear painful. (draught at office) letter from Hilda - wrote Worthing (Easter and Paignton Holiday
Y and J electric blanket - my electricity.
28th underground strike.
1st February. Babs said they want to get me out.
4th/5th. Posted letter to Y 62. Paid TV licence 63.
6th received letter Y (ours had crossed) they do want me to get out offer £600, remember J nattered something about house Jan 2.
8th Helen's birthday I gave paints and blouse.
8th 63 Helen's birthday gave my gold cross and chain and HMV record Oklahoma. She had at least two others "Pop ones" Jean early evening. Y only just in. ( I think I still have a copy of that record)
9th Helen's Party 3 - 7.30. Weather very cold.
14th 1963 Hospital out patients Babs. Ambulance went in saw her on Train 4.29 Harry ill hospitla when bed available. very cold. snowing not re shed.
17th 63. Went to Welling to see Harry and Win - Harry very queer home 11.45
18th 63 Children not got school. Cold snow in night.
19th 63 Children home from school.
20th Y out. Children still not at school, no fuel. card from Win re Harry. She is panicky. Cancer?
22nd 63 Y out. Snow again. morning slipped on stairs back hurts. Fog, afternoon and snow storm. Letter from Brian Y schedule A?
23rd. Children with Jean weekend. Received letter from my sol.enclosing one from Y sol. Ultimatum? They are determined to house me out. Sheer persecution. No hint of needing more room before.
31st March 1962 Yvonne married again, terrible day for me. No speak no hint, nothing.
There are some pages from the 63 diary, torn out and tucked into the 62 diary.
Monday 18th March. Hilda's birthday. Helen seeing some of her toys thrown out (dustbin) said to her mother "if it is thrown out again I will go with it. " adding "I mean that!!. terrible thing for a child of 8 to say - why should she use such a threat - is she unhappy? I have already pointed out that her mind is disturbed.
I had had the most wonderful rocking horse, I loved tipping it right up, but at 8 I was deemed too old for it, I remember being upset at the time that my things were being chucked out, so interesting to see the observations of how things were a year after my mother's second marriage and also how bad things were between her and my grandmother.
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